insecurity. I worried what people would think. I thought in worst case
scenarios. I feared the unknown, the known, and the might happen. In the process, I’ve wasted a lot of time and energy on my fear. I was hard on myself for it and did not like where my fear was taking me…nowhere. I was never one to jump into something head first, and still to this day take calculated risks, but the difference is that my fear does not stop me from doing things I would like to do. I used to say “I wish I was more like so and so.” I looked up to others, and even envied them, but rarely praised myself for my accomplishments and infrequently looked at what a beautiful a life I truly had. I was the types of person, as Abraham Lincoln once said, that would “complain that a rose bush had thorns” instead of “rejoicing because thorn bushes had roses.” It took me a while to realize that the only thing holding me back from being the person I wanted to be was myself! WOW! Who knew!
My turning point came when I took a look back at the life I had created, the friends I had and their views of who I was and I took responsibility for my past actions. I owned up to my mistakes, my flaws and I embraced them. I learned from them and grew from them. On days when I feel down I remind myself of what Michael Jordan had said: “I have failed over and over and over again, but I have succeeded because I have failed.” No one is perfect, not even pro-athletes! It is easy for us to idolize others who have so much and to feel like we have so little, but you know what? In most cases they have earned it, they have learned
from their mistakes, and their failures. They have risen above others who have quite or given up and therefore have created something they can be proud of. I stopped looking at my life in a way of disappointment and discontent and learned from my past. I reached out to those who I may have never reached out to. I put myself out there, tried things I never would have attempted before. I did not let my fear stop me from talking to people, or making new friends. I started viewing life as the glass is half full! Making this change has made all the difference. I am happy with who I am and I constantly strive for progress. I try
hard not to compare myself to others anymore, it only brought me down, I am unique just like they are and bring to the table my own distinctive gifts and talents.
Life is too short to go on living it in fear. We only have one life to live, and I intend to live it to the fullest. I intend to live healthy, to see others for who they can be, (their higher selves if you will), I want to love freely to give people the best of myself and to leave each person and place I meet a little bit better than I had found it. Martin H. Fischer wrote “Life is a ticket to the greatest show on earth,” and I refuse to let my fear stop me from enjoying the ride.
In Blessings and Health,